DAY FIVE: “Hate is too great a burden to bear. It injures the hater more than it injures the hated.”

Day 5 - Something You Just Want to Rage About.


So, let me tell you something: I don't do raging. And I'm a good mood today, so I can't really think of anything to rage about. 


Oh maybe just one. But it's not really raging. Just saying that all the people who are like, "oh, my life is bad, my life is horrible." What's the point of moaning about it? Just go fix it. And all these phrases like, "highschool sucks" and "the world is a bitch", etc. Well, high school only sucks if you make it suck. High school is better than facing the big bad world yourself? Hm? Wouldn't you agree? 


Highschool is a place of education. There is bound to be times when you trip and fall, and it hurts and all, but just get back up! Highschool is a place where you make friends. And hopefully, those friends will be your friends for life. 


So don't complain about life until you have walked the shoes of those who have lost everything. Don't make enemies... it's pointless. And hate? I bet those of you who hate, have not experienced it properly. It would most likely be a strong dislike. 


When everyone you love is dead or gone, and you have no home and food. Then you can complain about life. 


Other than that, just make the most of what you have.


Oh. So I did end up talking about something or other...   

Anti-Suicide Pledge

Ok. Just to humour Tracey. I'm posting it. Not that there was ever a chance I would. I'm the one advertising to enjoy life, aren't I? So here goes: 

I pledge not to ever attempt or go through with suicide.

:D Smile! 

DAY FOUR: "One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure its worth watching."

Day 4- One Thing You Cannot Live Without


I don't know about you... but you can't really know what you can't live without until you... just die from lack of it.


Anyway...not taking it literally, then it'd probably be my family/friends (obviously), BOOKS, and MUSIC.  =] But there's something that the world cannot live without, and that is love. So be not afraid to love/be loved. It's the best thing you could ever have...




P.S I have finally finished Romeo x Juliet - much to the cost of my science assessment tasks... but oh well! At the end... I was just like - WHAT IN THE WORLD?! How'd it come to this?! 


P.P.S Today was meant to be Rapture/Judgement Day. To all of you who went around hugging your enemies and that sort of sentimental stuff. Well, do that very day. :)  Live like you were dying. 

DAY THREE: Don't just exist. You must LIVE!

Day 3 - Greatest Ambition

I must say, I'm not much of an ambitious person. But I would like to think, that my greatest ambition would be to enjoy my life to the fullest, and at the least, leave a memory of myself somewhere, sometime. :)

We've only got one life. Might as well spend it doing what we want. :)

That's about it... I guess. :D

DAY TWO: "Make the most of yourself, for that is all there is of you."

Day 2 - A Weird Fact About Yourself


So, after wracking my brains for some weird and random fact about myself that's actually worth blogging about... I have finally come up with three:


1. I like cartoons/animated movies. A lot. Oh and movie soundtracks. I dislike MA 15+ movies, etc. 
2. I like ribbons and floor-length dresses. Like the ones with hoop skirts, etc.  
3. I like video games - but never manage to play them.


So... you're probably thinking... wow... but I just really love them. I'm a sucker for Disney/Pixar movies especially. But I like all animated movies. And the soundtracks. Mustn't forget the soundtracks! I love all movie soundtracks. Call it a fetish if you want... but I just do! I love listening to instrumental music. :D


And then... there were ribbons and full-length dresses... I guess it's just the whole fairytale thing I have going? But I really do love floor-length dresses.


And last but not least... Video Games. I... can be called obsessed... about graphics. And video games, have AWESOME graphics. Plus anime :D


So there you go... 3 random/weird/little-known facts about myself.


Over and out.  

DAY ONE: “It is better to keep a friend from falling than to help her up.”

Day 1- Greatest Fear and why.


This... is a dilemma. First day off... first question..................and I can't even answer it.
I don't actually have a greatest fear... 
Oh, wait. It might be falling. I believe that's my greatest fear. 


My greatest fear is falling. I hate falling. I don't know why. Maybe it is because I have "trust issues"...? 
But I'm not the sort who would have such a thing. I usually take people at their word... some may even go so far as to call me gullible.


But I just hate falling. Perhaps it's just the inevitable thud and jolting pain when you hit the floor. Or perhaps it's because there's no one to catch me? Maybe it's because I've been left to pick myself up every time I fall. But there's no definitive reason as to why I fear it so much. If everyone knew the reason behind their fears - most people wouldn't even have a fear anymore. 


Hence - the legendary Jennifer ... is afraid of falling. 

(This turned out to be unexpectedly long...>_>)

The 30 Day Challenge

I am... having a lack of inspiration from which I can source my blog posts... 
So therefore... I also, shall do the 30 Day Challenge. 
That ought to keep me busy... for a while. :D


day 1- greatest fear and why.
day 2- weird fact about yourself
day 3- greatest ambition
day 4- one thing you can not live without
day 5- SOMETHING YOU JUST WANT TO RAGE ABOUT.
day 6- the worst thing someone has said to you
day 7- if you could end one world issue what would it be.
day 8- who would you be if you could be someone else.
day 9- a meaningful song
day 10- favorite materialized object
day 11- why you blog
day 12- something you aren't looking forward to
day 13- something that really pisses you off.
day 14- someone you want to scream at
day 15- a song dedication.
day 16- favorite song in the history of the world.
day 17- worst habit
day 18- favorite quote and why.
day 19- if I could live anywhere in the world...
day 20- something you're ashamed of
day 21- something you're proud of
day 22- something you want to learn
day 23- perfect words to describe 10 people you know.
day 24- one thing you want to change about yourself
day 25- you hate it when people....
day 26- worst day of the week
day 27- your blog is called _____ because..
day 28- bucket list of things you have to do before you're 18
day 29- one item of clothing you REALLY WANT.
day 30- WHAT DO YOU THINK OF MY(TRACEY) BLOG?



(Source: Tracey Xue)

The Sound of Settling

My desk is situated beneath a window looking out to the west. It's situated that way, so that everyday, I can see the sunset and be glad that I have lived another day, if only to see such a beautiful thing.

My bed is placed next to a window looking out to the east, so that every morning, I wake up to the glorious sunrise, glaring into my face, reminding me, that it's a new day, a new start, in a wonderful world.

And so it is, and so it'll stay - brilliant, to the end of the day.

Who's That Chick?

Don't call us girls; chicks,
'Coz it's just like calling you guys; dicks.
Don't call us babe,
'Coz we're no thumb-sucking kid.
Don't call us sweetheart,
'Coz that's just sweet-nothings.

Call us angel,
'Coz we're yours.
Call us beautiful,
'Coz we really are.
Call us princess,
'Coz you're our prince.

Just the Way You Are

Don't go changing to try and please others,
Because you're perfect just the way you are.
You've never let me down before,
So I'm not going to let you let yourself down  now.

I took the good times, so I'll take the bad times.
And I'll take you just the way you are.
If you fall, I'll catch you quick,
So you're safe, right here with me.

It's not your fault, so don't say sorry.
You're not ugly, that's just misconception.
What is within, reflects without.
You're beautiful to me, in...and out.

It don't matter if you're wider than the average female.
Because one half of the world is, and the other half is not.
Just 'coz you're skinny, don't mean you have everything you want.
Sometimes it's the fatter people who are truly content.

You are beautiful for who you are.
Not for who you were; who you could be,
Or who you want to be,
Or who others want you to be.

So don't condemn yourself.
Accept yourself.
Love yourself.
Believe in Yourself.

Because you're perfect, just the way you are.

New Resolution

So, I have finally decided to make this a proper blog (of some sort). I am going to post stories, poems, and little things about my awesomely boring life. I'm going to read this in two weeks and think how stupid I am. But, oh well. Every single post is going to be titled as a song name. :) Let's see how long I can keep it up.

Have You Ever?

Have you ever felt, 

So scared deep inside,

Like there's nowhere left 

For you to hide?

Have you ever seen, 

A star shoot across the sky,

Like it's only ever been,

Up above that high.

Have you ever touched
A bird flying in the air,
Like freedom untouched,
Soaring without a care.

Have you ever heard,
The rain as it's falling down,
Like it much preferred,
The embrace of a human town.

Have you ever smelt,
The scent of sunshine in your nose
Like it would wish to melt,
Into a perfect rose.

Impossible things to do,
But nothing's more possible than,
Living your dream through,
Even though it wasn't the plan.

Not All Who Wander Are Lost

There was a time when

I'd just wander aimlessly

Here and There, 

Yet Nowhere.

Then time passed,

And I stopped,

At a standstill:-

Frozen Inbetween.

Now the time's upon us,

When I'd just wander,

But with a direction:-

I'm going home.

But time will come 'round,

And I'll wander again,

'till I'm brought home once more,

A never-ending life cycle.

I cannot stop to think.

I cannot move forward.

Somebody save me,

Perhaps you can?

Hearts of Fire & Hearts of Stone

There are two girls walking side by side. 

They are same, same but different.

One has a heart of fire, the other, a heart of stone.

What made them so? No one would ever know.

The one of stone wasn't always stone.

She had a heart to be gazed upon with admiration.

With every cut that was thrust upon her, 

that heart held up, solid as stone.

But then solidity turned into reality,

she is stone.

Free from any further injuries ...

... invincible.

The one of fire used to be quite the opposite. 

Cool & calm, not a smoldering mess.

She had a heart made for caring - trusting too.

Innocently placing fragile trust into rough hands.

But then, the hands broke it, shattered it, trod it underfoot.

A fire lit, burning it.

The fire consumed her ...

... and she was gone.

Opportune Moment

Opportunities come but I just let them go,

Always thinking that another will come around.

But there comes a time, 

When you've lost all opportunities.

And then you just wish,

That you'd grabbed them,

When they'd flown by earlier.

But they're gone now,

And there's nothing you can do about it.

The feeling of helplessness is not one you can live with.

Turning 13

13 - is just a number.

~counting the years you've lived so far.

13 - the beginning of the 'teen' years.

But like I said, 13 is just a number. 

It's what you did in those 13 years that really count.

Did every day of those 13 years actually count for a day? 

Or just another day wasted.

And 13 is just the beginning.

From now, you will change.

Progressively, discontinuously or completely.

You will somehow change.

But whether it's for good or bad, it's up to you.

Don't think you've lost control. 

because you've just gained some.

Don't lose your head in the process however.

Though some may say awful things,

Others will say things of virtue.

Though some criticize.

There'll always be a ready compliment from someone out there.

Because, being you is enough for some people.

Don't change yourself for others.

Change for yourself.

It's not who you were.

It's who you are and who you can be.

Don't be dragged down by those who seek for your downfall.

But lift yourself with the thought that somewhere out there,

there's always someone who's thinking what a great friend you are.

Childhood only comes round once.

13 only comes round once.

Life only comes round once.

So live it to the fullest it could ever possibly be.

~to a certain girl whose celebratory day of birth was today - May 23~

Happy Birthday, Laura!

Imagination

Imagination is a field of endless boundaries

Filled with threads leading everywhere,

You could lose yourself in that field...

But what is lost can also be found.

So once you have lost your self

You find again a thousand-fold

Sometimes you must lose it,

to finally discover it.

Live your dream.

Timeliness

Sitting here staring at the wall,
Watching the clock tick Time by,
Is totally brain-missing.

But you soon find yourself,
Setting yourself tasks.
Busying yourself again boredom.

And then there comes total immersion,
When you are engrossed with what you're doing.
Then all Time cannot sway you.

Reminiscience

Just because something's gone,

Doesn't mean you've lost it.

It just means you've misplaced it.

However, when someone's gone,

It feels like you've lost them.

But they're there in the times you've - 

had together.

Time is continuous.

The ones lost still exist,

Just in another time.

So don't cry, Celebrate their life instead.

Because Life is worth living.

Absence

You disappeared from sight...and took parts of me with you...You left me waiting...just waiting.

There are holes where you used to be, and the pieces you took with you...

...are nowhere to be found.

Come back...and catch me like you used to...

...I'm falling again.

So come back...soon....okay?

Queen of Hearts

"It is far better to be feared than loved."

And I fear you, my Queen. I fear you and I fear for you. I fear, that something has clouded your judgement. Where you once made wise and just choices, you now make selfish and unjust ones.

Please, I beseech of you, to unlock the box in which you have stored your heart, and lift that heart of yours from that very box, so to place it back, from the warm spot from whence it came.

Open your Heart. It's stronger than you think.

Have Faith in it, and its recuperative abilities.

Care Once More.

Farewell.

As I pass each room in the hospital, I wonder to myself:

'Were you in this room? Or perhaps, that room.

Were you sick like this ward? Or sick like that ward.

Did you suffer like this one? Or were you as peaceful as that one. '

And I can't help but wish that we were there earlier - to at least wish you farewell.

'I was coming, and you were waiting.

But your time was up, and you couldn't stay'

So you left, before either of us had the chance to say,

"Farewell."

And so, I write this message, to at least farewell you, even though you are not there to hear it.

"Fare thee well."

Many Happy Returns

To a girl that's sad, yet so strong,

There are many people in this world,

But we are one, yet we are many. 

How does that work you say?

There're people who are happy,

There're people who are sad,

There're people who are sensible,

And others that are just plain silly.

Others that are beautiful,

Others that are ugly.

Those that are charismatic,

And those unseen.

Yet all these people can be combined,

Into just a single person.
One, who is so unique.

And that one person,

Is nothing to the world,

But everything to one person.

You are thirteen now, 

and childhood doesn't last forever

So make sure you have lived every 4, 747 days that you have lived,

- to the fullest possible.

~dedicated to the Birthday Girl for April 23~

Today you are 13 and is now officially a TEENager.

Now don't waste your time, go and have some fun!

Fallen Angel

As you walk down the street, and pass each home,
You are part of that world for a little time,
You hear, you see, you feel the atmosphere.
But then you move on, and on...and on...
Heading in no direction, going nowhere...
Just wanting to be partake of...that familial happiness.

And you think to yourself...'I was like that once...till I fell...' and you regret the reason why you fell. And head on...going nowhere...staying nowhere.

The Ride of Your Life

Always moving,

Only stopping

To let a few

Depart forever.

And a couple more,

To board the train,

Until their time - 

Arrives.

Constant activity

Constant accidents.

'When will this stop?'

When the journey - 

Ends.

Footprints in the Sand

One night a man had a dream.

He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.

For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand;

One belonged to him,and the Other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,

he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path of his life,

there was only one set of footprints in the sand.

He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him, and he questioned the LORD about it.

"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way.

But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,

there is only one set of footprints.

I don't understand why, when I needed you most, you would leave me."

The LORD replied, "My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you.

During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints,

it was then that I'd carried you."

Change

I have a mission.


To change...
                 ...this world...
                                   ...into a better place.


To leave a good footprint in this world... I want to change peoples' lives for their own sake...


   I just want to ...rescue people... to leave something.... in which I will be remembered.
   
       It is better to die remembered then to die forgotten.

Happy Endings

Books exist, to create a world that has the elements of our world and the stories of our world, but they are twisted, changed and then decorated.

But, in Truth, these stories aren't so far from the realities of this real world. They are there to put things into perspective. Happy endings exist in these books because most of the stories of Reality have happy endings.

So to all those out there who dislike happy endings, please don't. Just because you're JEALOUS (I'm only kidding about that last part) doesn't mean you can stop people telling the tale of someone who found a happy ending to their story. 

Happy Endings are only just the beginning.

Smile.

Smile even if you're down. You never know, you may cheer up.

Put on a brave face, and you can work wonders.

A Smile is the most treasured thing in this world.


(Lucky 13th Post)

My World...

...is shifting...a lot.